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last normal summer... in a while.

this hit me just now: this summer would be the last real summer for me. labo? well, my past summers have been spent by hanging out with friends, lazing around, and not caring about anything else. i even figured that this summer would be my rest-slash-closing-for-the-high-school-girl-me because i want to give a proper ending to my high school experiences (yuck emo, nah i hear dr. phil's preachings). and i think i've done that just fine. i didn't waste any chance to hang out with friends, may it be to play dota with the bums (gaah i guess it's rare that i say no to that one); to windowshop in kamiseta, bayo, oxygen, and karimadon with chincha; to watch movies with my bestfriend danica (who's leaving for manila today); to go chineehopping with francelle; and to do the other helpful-sa-society stuff that we always do.

come next summer, probably just half of my friends can really bum around because some courses demand summer classes. those i manila will come home, of course, but then again they'll have activities in their school blah blah. and i'll probably be busy myself, doing hmm-i-don't-know-yet, but i'm sure i'm bound to be busy reaaallll soon because i'm on my way to med school. gaaah. i think by that time, summer will be just a give-away for me. crap.

so i have just a few... so few... more days before school starts. and before france leaves for manila. and before we have our last dota game (oh wait, we already did that, gaaah.) and before anything else that is so not high school-ish. foo.

yeay danica!

we had our last date the other day. we watched silent hill, right. gaaah i didn't want to watch that because i played a version of that game (the one where guy pa yung bida and cheryll yung name ng anak niya) when i was in grade 5, and it scared the hell out of me. hmm, well the game wasn't really freaky but the music was, so waah. yeah, i know i know, i'm really talawan. tsss. so ayun we watched the movie; i've never been so depressed in my life because there it is, a game that took me about a month and a half to finish, tas ayun naging hollywood clone lang. huh, and yeah i didn't understand the ending. see, i'm so pathetic. haay.

so anyway, we went to mr. donut afterwards (kasi ayokong magmcdo, new year's resolution haha), talked about secret-secret-stuff-you-know-what-blah-blah, camwhored, went home at 7. hehe, dutchchoco and chocobutternut. guess who? tsss. hai corny talaga namin huhu. :-)

ayt bai, ingatz sa manila. gaaah i'll pray for you and your chocobutternut. <3

man, i look like a demonya there. boo. ayt, peace. :-)

welcome to the ateneo : freshmen orientation day 1

crap, i hate referring to my school as the ateneo. grrsssh. anyway, it can't get any clearer than this: I AM NOW IN COLLEGE. high school is long gone. with that, it's exciting yet sad at the same time. so it was just last year when i felt superior over the younger others and knew most of the pasikot-sikot within the school. heck, it was indeed fun (and at times, ego-boosting) to have a PE shirt with the word SENIORS printed at the back. but then, graduation came.

so now i'm back to being a freshman, ignorante as my classmate rani would put it. i don't know my way around the campus, and i'm too shy ask for directions. getting food for lunch is still quite a challenge because the lines at the caf are long, and we're still in the process of trying out the places along roxas or jacinto (and just wasting our money). we still don't have a tambayan or an official bench for our five-minute breaks-- nah, i mean our long breaks in the afternoon. the names of the offices, the deans, and all the other college terms are still blahblah to my ears. and the ateneo population scares me a bit--i've gotten used to seeing familiar faces in high school, but now gaaah there are aliens everywhere. to think that wasn't even the usual school-day ateneo population. boo, this freshman list could go and on, but it all boils down to one thing: gosh, i'm such a loser. haha. :-) well, it takes time to adjust, right?

the first day started with a mass, so the new students got to meet fr. samson. and the usual speeches, blah blah. then when we came to our assigned classrooms, we met up with our AFYOP facilitators. so ayun the usual getting-to-know-you activities took place. my classmates seem nice, i like them. :-) too bad chris limen didn't make it to our section; he's too good for us. haha! he's in O2 (i'm from 01, by the way).

right, basically the day was all about what are your expectations and why the hell did you choose ateneo or bs bio. it got quite boring, but it was informative.

oh, and we had to prepare a cheer for our section for the next day's closing program. since nobody else would volunteer, we nudged kay to lead the group, so expect a lot of ateneo-cheers-na-siningitan-ng-section-O1-every-now-and-then. and gaawd, the facilitators taught us some dance moves for the community dancing (OH HECK) which also falls on the next day. so we had to dance-- jeez, then there was this NARDA step which was aliw. haha, although it sucked to have to dance to the chorus part of the song (yes, we just clapped at the verses), it was fun anyway. it brought out a lot of laughter from the group, so yeay!

asdfg hjkl asdfg hjkl asdfg hjkl (tamad to discuss further).

freshmen orientation day 2

now the second day was F U N... i think. basta, it was more of playing games and stuff. so our class got to know one another better, and we got to have that post-a-message-on-the-paper-that's-stuck-on-my-back activity at the end of the day. basta, it was fun.

so there was the closing program. singing, dancing, speeches, magtanga, blah blah... oooooooh, plug-in:

rufino otero sings realllllyyy well.
damn, he nailed that song. tas a capella pa. ttssss idol. :-)

so the guy (?) in the program said, "blah blah you're now in the ateneo community..." so i guess that makes us one of them.

gah, bad resolution. my hand was shaking when i took this pic. anyway, i can't say more about the orientations... parang it's all a blur right now hahah drugs! but oo nga, it was fun and... basta, ok lang. we met new friends, new campus, new pogiboys, blah blah. but i guess we were still we when the day ended. hehe, high school friendships never get old. sheesh.

so tomorrow marks our last dota game (at least for a while). it's all about marcel tomorrow. hahaha, bully!!! so bigboydan here we cam. :-)

sheesh, college na talaga. oh well... *too shocked to comment further*

angel marcel




pogi picture eh. marcel del fierro, langya astig ng pangalan chong tsss. :-) should've cropped it sa edges, but what the hell i'm tamad.

langhiya, june 1 na bukas! tsktsk freshmen orientation the next day.. tss i hope i'm dead by that time. or not. no, wag muna.

that witch!

so she gave me a look right, then glanced back at my application forms, and again at me...

witch: ms. comilang, are you sure you need grant-in-aid for you to stay in college?

me: well, i'm sure that you need students who deserve your scholarship *smiles* HUH? what the hell? grant in aid? i thought academic scholarship tong pinasukan ko?!?

witch: yes, but i don't think your financial situation would be any problem for you to study at all.

me: well, it'll be of great help if i still have a scholarship. we're not exactly well off. and i don't have any educational plan... yesshh, that's extra allowance for me you know, extra shopping money you know, and that's like my pang-gas you know! gimme scholarship sige na sige na sige na!

witch: okay. of course we'll look into that, dear. so, can you tell me the difference between charity and dole-out?

so that's how i got to be friends with mrs. blood-red-lipstick. why choose medicine? where do you plan to go to med school? oh so you plan to take up surgery? that takes fourteen years of staying in school, you know.

ANAKNGTOKWAAAAAA. 14 years? wa ka nabuang? that's like from birth to being a stupid sophomore in high school. but why not? basta ba you give me a scholarship eh, ayooooossss.

me: ma'am, i'll be honest. i don't really know what to do with my life. i am fresh from all the pangs of high school, and i'm so pathetic. i just want to be a doctor because DOCTOR KAMILLE COMILANG sounds sooo cool and it's the only way that i could help people with leukemia and anemia and all of those blood diseases that i have yet to discover if only you get me a scholarship. plus, that white vest and the whole stethoscope-hanging-around-the-neck looks so darn good on me. then again, i'm just an idealistic idiot who wants to save a few lives with a trip to the OR. (looks down, pause pause pause) i can't help it if zat's my life-long dream.
witch: you're damn right, idiotic surgeon! alright ms. comilang, you bagged the scholarship babyyyy! YEAY!

hold it, that's not me talking there. man, i'm so HANGUL for that scholarship. but i hope someone deserving gets it, whoever that person is. and i hope he/she also looks good in that white vest. huhu, see i just know that i won't get that scholarship! :-$

and i don't know what happened to my application in ateneo either. the woman there also gave me the whole are you sure you need a scholarship here??? seriously, do i look that brainless? di pa nga nagstastart yung actual interview biglang ARE YOU SURE YOU NEED THIS SCHOLARSHIP? agad! langhiya naman eh.

woman, SCHOLARSHIP = PRESSURE and that's the only way that i could work best! kung walang scholarship eh di i'll be ahh ok lang i'm not maintaining any grade bitaw. TARONG BAAAHHH BIGYAN NIYO KO NG SCHOLARSHIP KUNG HINDI WALA TALAGA I'LL DROP OUT OF COLLEGE! as if it's there loss, kamille. tss. i have to find another motivation.

i want to be a surgeon. Jesse is with me always. i want to be a surgeon. Jesse is with me always. i want to be a surgeon. Jesse is with me always. i want to be a surgeon. Jesse is with me always. i want to be a surgeon. Jesse is with me always.

that'll be my mantra now. man, i'll even do that with a dance. langya, nevermind basta that's my motivation na. and that's actually the best motivation there is, considering that i'll be in school for fourteen years... yes. Jesse <3's>

stuff.

HAPPY BERDE KUYA!

my relatives actually call my mom "mama no" because that's short for "mama ni dino" (dino = my bro). and that's what she's still known for even now that i'm already here huhuhuhu. what about me ha??? LOL. anyway, happy birthday kuya! :-D last time, i got him this... i think it's over a foot tall. i could've gotten him sephiroth, but nah cloud strife will have to do.

let's play dota let's play dota let's play dota one last time.

haha aliw eh. tsss.

**Go to your music player of choice and put it all on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and after each one press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question.**

[01] What do you think of me, iPod?>: always you by sophie zelmani
[02] Will I have a happy life?>: scarecrow by beck. haha langhiyang itunes kaaa.
[03] What do my friends really think of me?>: slicker than your average by craig david. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
[04] Do people secretly lust after me?>: every breath you take by the police. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
[05] How can I make myself happy?>: i just wanna be loved by AM radio. tsss.
[06] What should I do with my life?>: who needs shelter by jason mraz. whaaat???
[07] Why must life be so full of pain?>: tangerine by led zeppelin. wha? well i like zis song...
[08] How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?>: let's wait a while by janet jackson. hahahaha langhiya naman, kill me now. let's wait a while before we go to faaaar. tsss.
[09] Will I ever have children?>: smooth rider by dave matthews band. right.
[10] Will I die happy?>: nothing even matters by lauryn hill. naku, parang negative yun ah. GO TO HELL IPOD!

[11] Can you give me some advice?>: hello sunshine by the super furry animals. arrrggghhh..
[12] What do you think happiness is?>: stairway to heaven by led zeppelin. ayeeee.
[13] What's my favourite fetish?>: alcohol by the eraserheads. tssssss.

anakngtokwa ang labo nun ahh. ang dami pa namang ibang kanta eh, tsss. aliw, so my iPod also doubles as my magic eight ball. tssss, sulit! langhiya. man i should shut up.

my life is unfair. i wanna be somebody else.

yuck emo HAHAHAHAHA. right, so when my dad picked us up from the airport just a couple of days ago, i noticed this tiny crack on our car's windshield. yeah, first our car's behind hits guapo guy's car door and now karma felt like busting my dad's windshield. strangely though, my dad didn't know about the crack (ooh marx, it's your fave word: CRAAACCKKK.) until i laughed at the sight of it. so he simply said, "ahh, okay lang."

tapos, today...

dad: oy, no more driving para sa yo ha. tingnan mo yung crack sa windshield, ang laki na o!
me: o nga bakit lumaki na yan? bakit di na ko magdadrayyyb?
dad: eh kung anu-anong ginagawa niyo ng kuya mo dito sa kotse eh. bagsak ng pinto blahblah tas ayan laki na ang crack.
me: huuuuuuuhhhhhh? eh Paaaa, kaw naman lagi kong kasama pag nagdadaraaaayyb ako. tas bakit sa kin tinambak ang crack na yan? langhiya langhiya bad mood ako
bah langhiya langhiya.
dad: kayo naman talaga ng kuya mo yan. sige, pupunta pa kong ma-a, bili ng bagong windshield.
me: ngeh, diba kukuha tayo ng SP ngayon? ang haba ng pila para dun ah! unya na ng ma-a! you're my dad and i love you so i can't really be mad at you. langhiya langhiya langhiya.
dad: eh di ka nga muna magdadrayv!

see??? unfair! man, i don't see the logic in that. i wasn't even in davao when heaven blessed our car with that *&^%$ @# crack! so now i don't get to take on the wheel and go oh-man-i'm-so-cool-i-am-driving-at-70mph-and-you-posers-can-go-to-hell around ecoland. boo dad, and i actually thought that you're so cool with all your beatles and queen and led zep records. but you're just like everyone else.

jeeez. even my own dad bullies me. anakngtokwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. mama break up with papa na he's evil. HAHAHAHAHA. ha ha. huh. oi. gusto kong magdraaaaaayyyvvv....

the people have gone mad.

i saw this FLASH REPORT OH YEAH on tv just now, and why the hell are old people burning and tearing away copies of the da vinci code? ha? ha? ha? di ba kayo nag-aral ha ha ha? wala ba kayong utak ha? ha? ha? HAHAHAHA, eh kasi naman yung speaker ng movement na yon eh talagang feel na feel when he was saying his speech.

JEEE-ZZUUUSSSS WE LOVE YOOOOOOU. WE LOOOAATHE THIS PIECE OF WRITING. JEEEZZUUUSSS.

dude, you're full of crap. eh kung batukan ka kaya ni Jeeezzzusss huh? ha? ha? ha? (man, will i go to hell for saying this?)

so all i'm saying is... it's a BOOOOOOOK (or a movie, kung tamad kang magbasa). fiction. and all the other things that sir rivamonte said when he himself raised his eyebrow on people such as theeessse.

before you go all JEEEZZUSSS, check yourselves. man, to think you're on national tv! you made it in the FLASH REPORT OH YEAH SO FLASHY! books aren't evil, people are evil. man, we gotta learn how to appreciate (or recognize, respect, blah) lit.

this is depressing. i see my fellow artists getting stoned for expressing their creativity. jeez, we artists never get appreciated, people are so cruel.

kamille, go to hell. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

hibs pineda is a god. his kamao turns the chicks on.

yeaaaay! haha marcusdelisyus haha. joke lang, alam ko namang humble ka at gusto mong sikreto lang ang pagiging macho mo. kaya hanggang dito lang to. MAN WHERE'S MY LASAGNA??? boo pano yan, hahabulin ka na ng chicks sa teneo college, tsss wala ka nang time for us little people. promise me, BFF ha? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA LANGHIYA.

right. freshmen orientation is a week from now. oooh i'm a human biology student and i'm so cool to the point that i do not need to attend such orientations because i'm such a loner who doesn't even need to study as long as i have my good old cup of coffee and the beatles booming from my ipod. gyah, i'm not looking forward to the FO, i've been told that it'll be okay if i don't attend it. but i think i might as well attend just so i could get an idea of what i got myself into when i didn't slack off high school and thus got myself a diploma. regret regret regret.

ayt kids (harhar i'm seventeen harhar), i'll put an end to this entry. kill me now hahahaha ang labo ko hahahahahaha. i'm scaring myself. nah, tomorrow i'm back to my passive, un-palaaway, and kind self. HAHAHAHA. haha. ha. ha. ha. ho. hum.

del bakit ka mag-U-UP??? waaaah we'll die without you because we're so dependent sa iyong leadership at marcelness. lol. oh, ok lang, i mean it's UP MIN so it's soooo near jacinto. tsktsk.

yeay, thanks for the gift, france! :-) o chincha, yung gift mo? eh si john nga may gipt eh ikaw pa kaya?!? ha? ha? ha? HAHAHAHA, aylabyoo.

i'll go, you've suffered enough.

he shoots...

...and he scores. langhiya langhiya langhiya CPA ka na! tsssss.. the whole time you were complaining na mahirap. pero langhiya langhiya langhiya the geek passed the board exams (where geek = my bro). langhiya langhiya langhiya. you're like a part of that 25% percent who passed. hahahahaha. langhiya.


man, in a lot of ways, that guy is smarter than me. congrats! :-)

other stuff.

thanks kat for the gift! ;-)

***Eternal peace, Leonard! You will surely be missed. ***

other other stuff.

i'll give out a decent post some other time. i have to be somewhere and i'm already late. uh. haha, ang labo ng post na to. tssss.

may 15 is...

HAPI BERTDEY LOUIE BASA!!! YEAY!

yey, louie basa is one of the smaaaaartest, fuuuuniest, most chaaaaarming, guaaapo guys i know. maangas, pero dagdag pogi points naman eh. tsktsk, ewan ko nga ba, but basta may 15 ang birthday eh talagang magaganda (o ang guguapo) at malalakas ang dating eh. hmm.

board exams na! do well, kuya! CPA! CPA!

tss, one year in the making! ge lang, after that, dota til you die ka ulit. screw work.

i'll add to this post later. i have to be somewhere.

seventeen! :-)

this is later.

salamat po sa mga bumati, yeay!ü i love you guys! tsktsk, sayang naunahan ako ni louie sa pagbati eh huhu. but again, thanks sa mga nagtext, nag-YM, nagtag sa tagboard, nag-Chikka, tumawag, dumalaw, gumawa ng testi sa friendster, o nagpakita sa akin kanina.

all right, basically i spent half of my day (well, just 1.5 hours anyway) at the metwoe. and yes, chinee was there. too bad for you, francelle, because you're stuck in a far away mountain called Kapatagan. see, because i'm so niiiiiiice and sweeeet, God actually sent chinee to be my birthday mascot. and yes, he is every bit of the chinito god that you said he was. but you like him more than i do, so again it's really sad for you to not be there when he finally decided to show up. :-)

but i digress, this is not an entry about chinee because a certain blogger already has tons of that. ü i had a date with my bestfriend danica today (who also just turned seventeen this summer). yeay! thanks for your gift, dan! sorry that i forgot yours in the car, i'll drop it off, don't worry. ü

tas i had a wonderful dinner with my family. ayun, what a lay-low way of celebrating my birthday, i usually have parties at the house. but oh what the heck, i'm an old soul (actually, i'm really just a loner) who just can't throw anything big today because i'm bound to leave for manila tomorrow morning (haha ang labo, walang connection).

so if you didn't get to spend some time with an awesome person like me today, don't worry because we'll get together as soon as i get back from makati. lunch and dota next week, promiseü trust me on this, i don't run away when it's my turn to make libre.

i have to pack my stuff, see ya soon! ü but here are a few photos taken today (more are in my other site, blah kapoy lipat) : (left) thanks lara for the beautiful flowers!ü wow, that's the third i received in two months. yeay! (right) unknown model. blah.

bully, thanks for the
gipt! i love it! hahahahahaha, and the liquify thing. your pic this time. :-)

bioman, i am looking forward to eating your marcus-delicious lasagna.
and carrot cake. ü

i am not old. i'm just seventeen. :-D

<3

you know how it goes. the people you hang out with invite you for a session, promise that they keep a good eye on you through it all, and maybe even offer to pay for your first time. it's difficult to not give in, of course, since it's all they've been talking about for the past three months. i mean, a taste really wouldn't hurt, right?

i only do playstation stuff, man.

yeah, well. if anything, i loathed dota because i've seen how it can turn innocent school kids into HANGUL-shouting bastards who spend their resources to help make the owners of clickerz millionares (as joey would put it). and with hangul-shouting bastards, i speak of my older brother (and my classmates). you see, my kuya decided to put off his cpa board exams for another year because he got caught up playing dota until the wee hours of the morning, thus failing to review. sad. dota is bad. loathe it.

but marcel told me to give it a try. and marcus was a very patient teacher, and he even died a couple of times just so he could help me with my items and my skills. and jude & joey didn't kill me just so i could get the hang of it. and cesar allowed himself to be killed by me just so maganahan sad ang baguhan. and the creeps were just so cute (heck, i called them monster-monster back then). first hero? zeus, and my first four kills were all thanks to my teammates reducing the other guys' HPs and yelling WRAAAAATH!!! SEE? YOU KILLED HIM!. and then i'll say, "ha? i'm on the other side of the map!" but then that's the point. gaaah.

so school has been a whole lot sweeter after my first game. finishing off the previous day's assignment tends to be a lot more fun because you're doing it with the dota people. cle time passes quickly because you talk about burize and perse and agi. marcus's physics notebook has finally found its use: a sketchbook for the dota map and caricatures of the dota heroes. making projects during saturdays takes less time (and a little less effort to convince the guys) to finish because there's always that the-sooner-we're-done-the-more-time-we'll-have-for-dota inspiration. a give-and-take-win-win relationship has formed between me and my seatmate joey: i help him with physics (among other things), he helps me with dota (among other things). and even if i myself can't find the drive to fight off the 2/10's in our physics quizzes, the thought that we'll play dota come dismissal time is verrry relaxing. and things got even better for us when our fourth quarter exams were finally over, tsk i don't even have to say why that's so.

well, that was before.

we don't get to do that now, at least not as often as we used to. i've mellowed down a lot in terms of wanting to play with my dotamates-- i mean of course i do want to play, but it's okay if i don't. and it was cruel that the peak of my dota addiction (fine, we'll call it that) was when we had a looooot going on in school (heck, we were graduating!). but now that it's already summer, i don't even get to play at all! at least not that often.

i guess now, it all boils down to this: i'll play dota while it lasts. while francelle is still in davao (because i don't play when i'm the only girl around). while the other mates can still show up when we decide to play. and while marcel is still here (because i'd rather not play if he's not around, and who knows what planet he'll be in this june). i don't think i'll have as much fun as i do if i don't play with these people, what with the sudden outbursts of OH WHY DON'T YOU SMILE MY ONLY STAR from joey, the "peace muna tayo, pag level 6 na tayo patyanay" request of marcel, the POTEK HANGUL KA JUDE rants from just about everyone, the "AR tayo ha--wag, AP lang" debates, the "Pinatay mo ako? Nagtext man ko ato!" lines of akeem, the "WAG! DON'T KILL MEEEEE... ay bully." from me and francelle (and sometimes, krishna!), and the usual "AY ANDYAN NA SI MARCEL! DAGAN NAAA!" from everyone. so when they go, dota's done for me. :-)

so now i'm on my brother's side. that is, there's just something about dota that can make you forget about your board exams and put you on a hiiiiiiigh. man, it beats endorphines. or that feeling of receiving an award. dota beats all of zat. now that got me thinking, i can't just say i'll stop playing. okay, i'll just be on dota leave when my dotamates go.

because when sembreak comes, we'll relive our 6-hours-straight-walay-kaon-kaon dota matches. just. like. in. high. school.

just a couple of greetings...

HAPPY BERTDEY, MON E.!!! youdaman.

back when we were in 5th grade, he'd drive (on a bike) by my house on school days and we'd beat the balls out of seifer and grendel (from final fantasy 8, man i hate that game). we don't talk much these days, but yeah it's just like the old days when we do. hmm, he's probably the smartest person i know. tsktsk. blech, i digress. happy birthday, idol.

yep, aylabyootoo eli (in response to your shoutout in friendsterü).

decent entry? nah, some other time. right now, all i've got is chinee chinee chinee. but france already has that, so it's like her posts are vicariously mine. haha. haa. ha.